![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Entry tags:
it stops tonight - 4
pg | chanyeol / xiumin ; & other members
abo au
summary: chanyeol loses his memory but he's working hard at getting his life back. he's almost there and yet... he feels like something is missing.
He spends the whole weekend and another three days holed up in his room. After the first day of worried visitors, no one bothers him. Chanyeol can hear Baekhyun and Jongdae whisper as they leave the front door.
"Maybe he's depressed about the accident?" Baekhyun asks worriedly.
"Just give him some time..." placates Jongdae.
"Will time bring back the old Chanyeol?" Baekhyun muses.
Chanyeol doesn't hear the answer, but he wonders too. Would time bring the old him back? Would finding his lost memories make him the happy-go-lucky kid he used to be? It seems easy enough to fall back into the old routine that he remembers, but there will always be this nagging feeling in his heart. Those two years are still lost at the end of the day.
After five days and nights of thinking alone, no memories come back to him. In his dreams, the scent of citrus and pine intensify. He catches himself searching for the scent in his waking hours. Unconsciously, he searches the atmosphere for any signs of a similar aroma, but he finds nothing.
Finally, his appointment day with Kyungsoo comes around and the thoughts he had kept from Kyungsoo suddenly start spilling forth.
"Maybe it's the scent of someone I knew? Maybe it's someone connected to my accident? Did I mention anyone, did you know - ?"
But Chanyeol's ranting is cut short but the clack of Kyungsoo's pen and the sharp tone as Kyungsoo asks, "What did you say the scent was?"
"Mmmm...citrus. Something woodsy. Something sweet, but not like candy. It's familiar I think... but nothing I've known in the memories I haven't lost."
"And... how does the scent make you feel?" Kyungsoo probes. "What thoughts do the dreams leave you with?"
"It hurts" Chanyeol says simply. He rubs his chest over his shirt. "It hurts here."
"..."
"And... it's not like a sharp pain or anything. Sometimes, I don't even think it's real. Like, it's not muscular or skeletal. It doesn't seem like anything wrong with my body, but the pain... that's real. It feels like a deep pang, ringing throughout my chest."
"How come you didn't tell me sooner?" Kyungsoo scolds.
Chanyeol shakes his head. "I don't know. The only things that made me feel better were the dreams and the moonlight."
"The moonlight?" Kyungsoo repeats, raising a brow. "Is that why you're sleep deprived?"
Chanyeol looks up questioningly.
"Minseok told me" Kyungsoo explains. "He said it seemed like you weren't getting any sleep."
At the mention of Minseok, a ghost scent of spearmint reaches Chanyeol's nose, making him smile fondly.
"Yeah. Looking at the moon... it just made me feel like I could finally remember something. But as soon as the sun came up... it went away."
Kyungsoo nods, closing his eyes briefly and massaging his temples.
"I think I know what you mean" Kyungsoo returns. "But it doesn't mean you can skip on sleeping. You're still recovering, mentally and physically. Don't lose sleep over this. Literally. Time will bring your memories back. Maybe not everything, but most of it. Don't lose hope and don't try to hard. It'll stress your body and maybe prolong the process. Remember, your body has to heal to bring back the memories."
Chanyeol nods, getting up to leave. Kyungsoo leans back in his seat, as if in deep thought, but looks up when Chanyeol's hand reaches the door knob.
"I almost forgot..." Kyungsoo says as if he's just remembered. "Here's something to cheer you up... your brother's coming to visit next week. He finally can travel now."
+++
Kyungsoo is right. The news of his older brother cheers Chanyeol up immensely. After his accident, Chanyeol had heard from Junmyeon about Kangyeol. He's heard about how Kangyeol had been injured in a pack battle. How Kangyeol was out of commission and unable to travel for a while.
Chanyeol, not being so able bodied himself, hadn't been able to travel to meet Kangyeol after his accident either. And more than that, they now had their own packs. It wasn't a huge deal to not get a visit from a sibling. But still, this visit from his older brother puts Chanyeol in high spirits. He gets excited for what feels like the first time since his accident.
He's more talkative with Jongdae and Baekhyun. And he smiles all throughout practice, making Minseok comment on how hand to hand combat isn't something to be grinning at. But the comment is teasing and Chanyeol eyes sparkle at the way Minseok himself grins in Chanyeol's direction. He feels that familiar pang in his chest, and yet what fills his nostrils isn't sweet citrus pine. Instead, Chanyeol's filled with spearmint and his grin spreads even wider.
For some reason, when Chanyeol tells Sehun and Jongin about the visit, it makes the grimace on Jongin's face deeper. Sehun fidgets, going back and forth from looking happy for Chanyeol, to looking worriedly in Jongin's direction.
"What does Minseok hyung say?" Jongin questions.
Sehun elbows Jongin, but Jongin continues staring at Chanyeol, waiting for an answer.
Chanyeol shrugs. "I haven't told Minseok hyung yet."
"Haven't... or couldn't?" Jongin presses.
Chanyeol frowns, confused. "What do you mean by that?"
When Jongin scowls and looks away without answering, Chanyeol turns his questioning gaze to Sehun. Caught in the middle, but unable to stay silent, Sehun smiles weakly.
"Well, hyung... Kangyeol hyung is Minseok hyung's fiancé after all..."
+++
At first, he just blinks as if the small movements will somehow help him to process. These are words he understands but, together, they formulate a thought that doesn't quite register. The shock pierces Chanyeol deeply and strikes an unsuspected chord. It almost feels like someone's said this to him before. It feels like he's had this feeling before - a sense of deja vu. The feeling doesn't sit well with him. In fact, it makes the inside of his mouth taste badly.
Chanyeol doesn't remember how he had left Jongin and Sehun's place. When he comes to, he's standing in front of Kyungsoo's office. He doesn't knock. He just stands there. And in, what's perhaps ten minutes or ten hours (time has escaped him now), the door opens with Kyungsoo dressed like he's on his way home.
Kyungsoo's huge eyes widen at Chanyeol's large frame in the doorway. However, when Kyungsoo sees the look in Chanyeol's eyes, Kyungsoo sighs and opens the door wider - an invitation to come in.
"Come on" Kyungsoo says behind his shoulder. "I was expecting you anyway..."
###############################
ages, from oldest to youngest:
kangyeol, yixing
kyungsoo, minseok, junmyeon
chanyeol, jongdae, baekhyun
jongin
sehun (baby ♥)
abo au
summary: chanyeol loses his memory but he's working hard at getting his life back. he's almost there and yet... he feels like something is missing.
He spends the whole weekend and another three days holed up in his room. After the first day of worried visitors, no one bothers him. Chanyeol can hear Baekhyun and Jongdae whisper as they leave the front door.
"Maybe he's depressed about the accident?" Baekhyun asks worriedly.
"Just give him some time..." placates Jongdae.
"Will time bring back the old Chanyeol?" Baekhyun muses.
Chanyeol doesn't hear the answer, but he wonders too. Would time bring the old him back? Would finding his lost memories make him the happy-go-lucky kid he used to be? It seems easy enough to fall back into the old routine that he remembers, but there will always be this nagging feeling in his heart. Those two years are still lost at the end of the day.
After five days and nights of thinking alone, no memories come back to him. In his dreams, the scent of citrus and pine intensify. He catches himself searching for the scent in his waking hours. Unconsciously, he searches the atmosphere for any signs of a similar aroma, but he finds nothing.
Finally, his appointment day with Kyungsoo comes around and the thoughts he had kept from Kyungsoo suddenly start spilling forth.
"Maybe it's the scent of someone I knew? Maybe it's someone connected to my accident? Did I mention anyone, did you know - ?"
But Chanyeol's ranting is cut short but the clack of Kyungsoo's pen and the sharp tone as Kyungsoo asks, "What did you say the scent was?"
"Mmmm...citrus. Something woodsy. Something sweet, but not like candy. It's familiar I think... but nothing I've known in the memories I haven't lost."
"And... how does the scent make you feel?" Kyungsoo probes. "What thoughts do the dreams leave you with?"
"It hurts" Chanyeol says simply. He rubs his chest over his shirt. "It hurts here."
"..."
"And... it's not like a sharp pain or anything. Sometimes, I don't even think it's real. Like, it's not muscular or skeletal. It doesn't seem like anything wrong with my body, but the pain... that's real. It feels like a deep pang, ringing throughout my chest."
"How come you didn't tell me sooner?" Kyungsoo scolds.
Chanyeol shakes his head. "I don't know. The only things that made me feel better were the dreams and the moonlight."
"The moonlight?" Kyungsoo repeats, raising a brow. "Is that why you're sleep deprived?"
Chanyeol looks up questioningly.
"Minseok told me" Kyungsoo explains. "He said it seemed like you weren't getting any sleep."
At the mention of Minseok, a ghost scent of spearmint reaches Chanyeol's nose, making him smile fondly.
"Yeah. Looking at the moon... it just made me feel like I could finally remember something. But as soon as the sun came up... it went away."
Kyungsoo nods, closing his eyes briefly and massaging his temples.
"I think I know what you mean" Kyungsoo returns. "But it doesn't mean you can skip on sleeping. You're still recovering, mentally and physically. Don't lose sleep over this. Literally. Time will bring your memories back. Maybe not everything, but most of it. Don't lose hope and don't try to hard. It'll stress your body and maybe prolong the process. Remember, your body has to heal to bring back the memories."
Chanyeol nods, getting up to leave. Kyungsoo leans back in his seat, as if in deep thought, but looks up when Chanyeol's hand reaches the door knob.
"I almost forgot..." Kyungsoo says as if he's just remembered. "Here's something to cheer you up... your brother's coming to visit next week. He finally can travel now."
+++
Kyungsoo is right. The news of his older brother cheers Chanyeol up immensely. After his accident, Chanyeol had heard from Junmyeon about Kangyeol. He's heard about how Kangyeol had been injured in a pack battle. How Kangyeol was out of commission and unable to travel for a while.
Chanyeol, not being so able bodied himself, hadn't been able to travel to meet Kangyeol after his accident either. And more than that, they now had their own packs. It wasn't a huge deal to not get a visit from a sibling. But still, this visit from his older brother puts Chanyeol in high spirits. He gets excited for what feels like the first time since his accident.
He's more talkative with Jongdae and Baekhyun. And he smiles all throughout practice, making Minseok comment on how hand to hand combat isn't something to be grinning at. But the comment is teasing and Chanyeol eyes sparkle at the way Minseok himself grins in Chanyeol's direction. He feels that familiar pang in his chest, and yet what fills his nostrils isn't sweet citrus pine. Instead, Chanyeol's filled with spearmint and his grin spreads even wider.
For some reason, when Chanyeol tells Sehun and Jongin about the visit, it makes the grimace on Jongin's face deeper. Sehun fidgets, going back and forth from looking happy for Chanyeol, to looking worriedly in Jongin's direction.
"What does Minseok hyung say?" Jongin questions.
Sehun elbows Jongin, but Jongin continues staring at Chanyeol, waiting for an answer.
Chanyeol shrugs. "I haven't told Minseok hyung yet."
"Haven't... or couldn't?" Jongin presses.
Chanyeol frowns, confused. "What do you mean by that?"
When Jongin scowls and looks away without answering, Chanyeol turns his questioning gaze to Sehun. Caught in the middle, but unable to stay silent, Sehun smiles weakly.
"Well, hyung... Kangyeol hyung is Minseok hyung's fiancé after all..."
+++
At first, he just blinks as if the small movements will somehow help him to process. These are words he understands but, together, they formulate a thought that doesn't quite register. The shock pierces Chanyeol deeply and strikes an unsuspected chord. It almost feels like someone's said this to him before. It feels like he's had this feeling before - a sense of deja vu. The feeling doesn't sit well with him. In fact, it makes the inside of his mouth taste badly.
Chanyeol doesn't remember how he had left Jongin and Sehun's place. When he comes to, he's standing in front of Kyungsoo's office. He doesn't knock. He just stands there. And in, what's perhaps ten minutes or ten hours (time has escaped him now), the door opens with Kyungsoo dressed like he's on his way home.
Kyungsoo's huge eyes widen at Chanyeol's large frame in the doorway. However, when Kyungsoo sees the look in Chanyeol's eyes, Kyungsoo sighs and opens the door wider - an invitation to come in.
"Come on" Kyungsoo says behind his shoulder. "I was expecting you anyway..."
###############################
ages, from oldest to youngest:
kangyeol, yixing
kyungsoo, minseok, junmyeon
chanyeol, jongdae, baekhyun
jongin
sehun (baby ♥)