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Entry tags:
- abo au,
- chanyeol/xiumin,
- fic,
- kai,
- short
it stops tonight - 6.5 (JONGIN)
pg | chanyeol / xiumin ; kai / xiumin
abo au
NOTE: This takes place about a year back from when the main story takes place.
There aren't many things that Jongin thinks unfair in life. But when Jongin sees Park Chanyeol, he can't help but be a little bitter.
As a child, Jongin had always been chasing after Minseok's back. Kim Minseok was the hyung next door, whose news was on the lips of every mother.
And it wasn't the fact that Minseok was a wonder boy that Jongin was jealous of. It was the fact that Jongin would never be able to catch up and stand on equal ground, looking into Minseok's eyes and smile...something that Park Chanyeol somehow achieves.
When Minseok had moved overseas for college, Jongin felt that he would never see the hyung he had put on a pedestal, again. But then, like magic, Minseok had turned up at the EXO Pack, looking the same as ever. The only thing that had changed was that Jongin was now a fully developed alpha.
Jongin still remembers when he first took in Minseok's scent. It was a heady, all-enveloping scent that made their welcoming embrace feel like eons of time and nanoseconds at the same time - too long, but too short. And for that time, Minseok and he were the only ones there.
But then Minseok had broken away to introduce the two other new pack members he had traveled with. And at Junmyeon's prying question, Minseok had admitted he had an alpha to whom he was engaged.
At the news, Jongin found it hard to keep his face straight. Every part of his body had stiffened and his blood and turned cold. Everyone else had been so engrossed in the new recruits that Sehun was the only one who asked Jongin what was wrong.
And now...as Jongin meets eyes with Chanyeol, his heart feels shattered to pieces all over again. His head feels empty and all the muscles in his chest have constricted so painfully that Jongin can't breathe. But there's nothing he can do. Jongin stands rooted in place as Chanyeol kisses Minseok, wrapping his long limbs around Minseok's smaller one. He watches masochistically when Minseok tip toes into the kiss, pressing into Chanyeol's chest.
+++
The next day comes as a harsh veil of light. Jongin doesn't sleep that night and when he sees Chanyeol again, he can't help but grimace. He refuses Chanyeol's requests of speaking in private. But when Chanyeol corners him after training, Jongin can't refuse.
"It's not Minseok hyung... it's me" is the first thing Chanyeol says. "I'm the one who fell in love with him. Minseok hyung isn't... I mean, he's not..."
But Jongin can read the faint pink glow on Chanyeol's cheeks.
"I can tell Minseok hyung likes you too" Jongin admits flatly.
He can't bring himself to say the word 'love'. But even so, Chanyeol's blush grows deeper and Jongin has to look away.
"He's engaged Chanyeol hyung" Jongin hisses. "You know this and yet..."
"But they're not even compatible! Minseok hyung told me. He doesn't feel a pull from his financee's scent and neither does his finacee!"
"Hyung!" Jongin shouts to stop Chanyeol's rant.
"Did Minseok hyung say he's going to break it off?"
"..." Chanyeol looks at his feet.
"Did Minseok hyung say he could be your mate?!"
"..." Chanyeol lets out an audible sigh.
"No matter how much you love him, there are things that can happen and things that can't! You have to know when to step back! You have to know when your love for Minseok hyung can't do anything... when it can't go any further..."
Jongin sees the tears before he hears them. There are large wet spots on the ground near Chanyeol's feet, but then again, there are the same spots near Jongin's own feet. He doesn't know whether he's screaming at Chanyeol or himself. And in his frustration, he storms out of the locker room, furiously wiping the tears from blocking his vision.
+++
Sehun and Jongin have been sharing a room long enough for Sehun not to ask in depth. It doesn't stop Sehun from worrying and his fretting bothers Jongin enough for him to go on long walks when he cannot fall asleep. His mind wanders and so does his feet, but somehow he always ends up in front of Minseok's sleeping quarters.
There's a large window revealing the inside of Minseok's living room and sometimes, at night, he sees Minseok and Chanyeol curled up on the couch, going through photo after photo of their time together. Jongin doesn't know why he does this to himself. Perhaps it's the burden of knowing about Minseok's affair. Perhaps it's the remnants of his nearly life long crush. Whatever it is, it doesn't stop the pain that sears from the remaining embers of his one sided love for Minseok.
He walks home every night with the growing pain in his chest. And one night, Jongin decides it needs to stop. Whether it's his sense of justice or the fact that he'll never really be over Minseok hyung, he decides that it's this night.
That tonight, it needs to stop.
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넌 쏟아지는 달빛에 샤워
you're the shower of the falling moonlight
그 황홀한 표정은 본 적이 없어
I've never seen that rapt expression
그림처럼 멈춘 네가 보여
I see you who has stood still like a drawing
그 시선 끝엔
and at the end of that sight...
abo au
NOTE: This takes place about a year back from when the main story takes place.
There aren't many things that Jongin thinks unfair in life. But when Jongin sees Park Chanyeol, he can't help but be a little bitter.
As a child, Jongin had always been chasing after Minseok's back. Kim Minseok was the hyung next door, whose news was on the lips of every mother.
"Oh I heard the Kim's boy is top of his class again."
"I heard he mastered level 10 of martial arts training a year early!"
"That Kim boy is so nice. He always helps me carry the groceries."
"You know I saw him taking a walk with that camera of his... even his hobbies are so upright."
And it wasn't the fact that Minseok was a wonder boy that Jongin was jealous of. It was the fact that Jongin would never be able to catch up and stand on equal ground, looking into Minseok's eyes and smile...something that Park Chanyeol somehow achieves.
When Minseok had moved overseas for college, Jongin felt that he would never see the hyung he had put on a pedestal, again. But then, like magic, Minseok had turned up at the EXO Pack, looking the same as ever. The only thing that had changed was that Jongin was now a fully developed alpha.
Jongin still remembers when he first took in Minseok's scent. It was a heady, all-enveloping scent that made their welcoming embrace feel like eons of time and nanoseconds at the same time - too long, but too short. And for that time, Minseok and he were the only ones there.
But then Minseok had broken away to introduce the two other new pack members he had traveled with. And at Junmyeon's prying question, Minseok had admitted he had an alpha to whom he was engaged.
At the news, Jongin found it hard to keep his face straight. Every part of his body had stiffened and his blood and turned cold. Everyone else had been so engrossed in the new recruits that Sehun was the only one who asked Jongin what was wrong.
And now...as Jongin meets eyes with Chanyeol, his heart feels shattered to pieces all over again. His head feels empty and all the muscles in his chest have constricted so painfully that Jongin can't breathe. But there's nothing he can do. Jongin stands rooted in place as Chanyeol kisses Minseok, wrapping his long limbs around Minseok's smaller one. He watches masochistically when Minseok tip toes into the kiss, pressing into Chanyeol's chest.
+++
The next day comes as a harsh veil of light. Jongin doesn't sleep that night and when he sees Chanyeol again, he can't help but grimace. He refuses Chanyeol's requests of speaking in private. But when Chanyeol corners him after training, Jongin can't refuse.
"It's not Minseok hyung... it's me" is the first thing Chanyeol says. "I'm the one who fell in love with him. Minseok hyung isn't... I mean, he's not..."
But Jongin can read the faint pink glow on Chanyeol's cheeks.
"I can tell Minseok hyung likes you too" Jongin admits flatly.
He can't bring himself to say the word 'love'. But even so, Chanyeol's blush grows deeper and Jongin has to look away.
"He's engaged Chanyeol hyung" Jongin hisses. "You know this and yet..."
"But they're not even compatible! Minseok hyung told me. He doesn't feel a pull from his financee's scent and neither does his finacee!"
"Hyung!" Jongin shouts to stop Chanyeol's rant.
"Did Minseok hyung say he's going to break it off?"
"..." Chanyeol looks at his feet.
"Did Minseok hyung say he could be your mate?!"
"..." Chanyeol lets out an audible sigh.
"No matter how much you love him, there are things that can happen and things that can't! You have to know when to step back! You have to know when your love for Minseok hyung can't do anything... when it can't go any further..."
Jongin sees the tears before he hears them. There are large wet spots on the ground near Chanyeol's feet, but then again, there are the same spots near Jongin's own feet. He doesn't know whether he's screaming at Chanyeol or himself. And in his frustration, he storms out of the locker room, furiously wiping the tears from blocking his vision.
+++
Sehun and Jongin have been sharing a room long enough for Sehun not to ask in depth. It doesn't stop Sehun from worrying and his fretting bothers Jongin enough for him to go on long walks when he cannot fall asleep. His mind wanders and so does his feet, but somehow he always ends up in front of Minseok's sleeping quarters.
There's a large window revealing the inside of Minseok's living room and sometimes, at night, he sees Minseok and Chanyeol curled up on the couch, going through photo after photo of their time together. Jongin doesn't know why he does this to himself. Perhaps it's the burden of knowing about Minseok's affair. Perhaps it's the remnants of his nearly life long crush. Whatever it is, it doesn't stop the pain that sears from the remaining embers of his one sided love for Minseok.
He walks home every night with the growing pain in his chest. And one night, Jongin decides it needs to stop. Whether it's his sense of justice or the fact that he'll never really be over Minseok hyung, he decides that it's this night.
That tonight, it needs to stop.
#########################################################################
넌 쏟아지는 달빛에 샤워
you're the shower of the falling moonlight
그 황홀한 표정은 본 적이 없어
I've never seen that rapt expression
그림처럼 멈춘 네가 보여
I see you who has stood still like a drawing
그 시선 끝엔
and at the end of that sight...